It's 2012 and the year of the water dragon. A 12 year cycle has come and gone. It seems like not long ago I was celebrating my 30th birthday and spending time with friendly acquaintances - in addition to rekindling a relationship with an old flame.Things were looking up and like this year, it too was a year of the dragon. I hadn't been this content with life in awhile. I had a full time job, buds,and a girlfriend I cared deeply for. It wasn't perfect but what is?
As with the course of time - things change. I still have the buds but we're not as close as we once were. As for the girlfriend - it's history. It was fun but we both knew it wouldn't last. She helped me become more emotionally honest with myself (and others) as well as sparked my interest in astrology. Need I say that she was born in a year of the dragon?
I have no idea what this year has in store for me. I'm trying to eat healthier and get more active. I hope I follow through. There's places I'd like to go and things to do. Whether that actually happens or not is largely dependent on doing what needs to be done. I'm currently finishing up my reading. I really feel this is an important year and a mild (but calm) sense of urgency seems to be my motivating factor.
As with the course of time - things change. I still have the buds but we're not as close as we once were. As for the girlfriend - it's history. It was fun but we both knew it wouldn't last. She helped me become more emotionally honest with myself (and others) as well as sparked my interest in astrology. Need I say that she was born in a year of the dragon?
I have no idea what this year has in store for me. I'm trying to eat healthier and get more active. I hope I follow through. There's places I'd like to go and things to do. Whether that actually happens or not is largely dependent on doing what needs to be done. I'm currently finishing up my reading. I really feel this is an important year and a mild (but calm) sense of urgency seems to be my motivating factor.
I can honestly say that I've never fit in with mainstream society. Having a family and being in a romantic relationship with the "ideal" woman isn't for me. It doesn't help that society is depraved and the economic infrastructure is broken. All the same - I'm a confirmed bachelor and now that I'm in my 40s people can see it and accept me for it. It no longer seems like some form of pity party or self loathing.
I see couples with their kids and their amazing careers and it just doesn't appeal to me. I don't see this as the ultimate human experience. It seems so primitive. So ...... low frequency. Thank goodness most people don't view it as I do or our species would be going extinct right now.
Life is short. Not everyone fits neatly into some mold and the longer a person tries to convince himself otherwise the less time he has to just get out there and live the life he was meant to live. That's not to say that anyone can be a doctor, or an engineer, or have some other high powered and high paying job but to stay put some place just because of some undue sense of loyalty or fear of change is self stifling and you'd have only yourself to blame.
Be free. Be free like a bumble bee or a bird flying high in the wild
blue yonder. Think they're worried about paying the mortgage on time
every month? Or holding down some mind numbing job? Feel you have to
have that 50 inch flat screen plasma t.v.? Really need that gas guzzling
sports utility vehicle? What's up with trying to keep up with the
Joneses anyhow? What's the point? Do you really think they give a damn
about you either way? Is your sense of self worth really dependent on
others' opinion of you?
Nope. It's not for me and I'm not afraid to say it either. This is
potentially my year to get my act together and that's what I plan to do.
I might be a looser in the eyes of the average lemming out here but so
be it. My path differs and where it leads is the goal but it's the journey I'm most looking forward to.
